Dreaming wide-awake

What if life really was a dream and there were only two waking states: “dreaming wide-awake” along-side of “dreaming dead asleep.” Assuming life to be “but a dream” what would it mean to become awake verses be asleep?

The general belief is that we wake-up from sleep to experience the real world. That belief would rule out the possibility we ever awaken from a dreaming state if is assumed we awaken from subconscious sleep to conscious daily living.

Alarm goes off, out of bed, off to work or school we go. This is unmistakably hard core everyday reality many of us face. Bills need to be paid and challenges met. Questioning what state we’re in doesn’t put food on the table.

That’d be true if asking fundamental questions doesn’t matter at the end of the day. What if it could matter?

Suppose there’s two kinds of nonsense drawers? One that gets filled with the right kind of bull and the other with the same old moonshine?

To proceed a leap of faith might be needed. Let’s assume there might be an unexpected payoff tucked away in that bull drawer stuffed with our imaginative speculations that only needs a little rumination to coax out.

We’ll pretend we’re stuck in a live-wire dream called “life.” What might be the difference it’d make to wake-up to the “fact” we’ve been in a dream state while going about our daily business? Like it now appears we’ve been rowing our little boats downstream like crazy watching our days pass like river bank trees as if there’s no tomorrow.

It might matter if we’re ultimately clueless as to who we are, where we’ve come from, and where we’re headed even though having been told only the lost don’t know. What if it is true that what we don’t know verses what we do know should be the focus of our concern?

Why might it make a difference to sort this out? For starters, if “it is what it is” can’t be known because it is a dream state, we might stop wasting time trying to figure such things out.

What if the void, the pure emptiness that supposedly might be, is the real reality and this dream state just means that in order to have any experience at all, emptiness needs to be compressed down into some-thingness that could be called “the dream?” For lack of a better term, of course.

If so, to be truly awake in terms of reality would be to have an experience-free experience if to have an experience of reality means existence is distilled emptiness. Saying “having an experience of reality” seems to imply experience isn’t the same thing as reality itself.

Dreaming wide-awake would be like experiencing a part of the ocean of emptiness reduced to a drop of experience. With assumed awareness that drop of experience is all that can be known, a door might be cracked-open to dreaming wide-awake.

Making the important point that while it is impossible to be fully awake and know it, it is possible to be partially awake and know it. If so, it seems possible to dream wide-awake instead of dead-asleep.

Having entered such a cloud of unknowing, bills still need to be payed and food to put on the table. The question is can that happen with a little less worry? Why?

Choices made now for future outcomes might be made less worrisome when dreaming wide-awake because we no longer hold ourselves accountable if we can only know as in “dream” in part. If dreaming wide-awake sounds better than no dream at all, then a way forward could be ours.

If so, partial knowledge experienced is better than total knowledge unknown. While having “no worries” may seem too idealistic, having less worries seems more attainable if partial knowledge means the risk factor inherent in every decision made is now laid bare.

Hopefully, going forward while dreaming wide-awake would then mean there’s less chance of getting blind-sided because the assumed need for total knowledge of our situation has been taken off the table. In other words, certainty is no longer thought to be needed for knowledge.

3Ls

For thought experiment’s sake let’s create a metaphor with three realms. We’ll call the upper domain light, the middle love and the bottom lust. These three spheres of existence being assumed to be of equal importance.

Love and light are often associated. That’s fine as there are often good reason offered for the connection. What would happen if a lower kingdom of lust was included as the necessary foundation for love and light forming a conjoined threesome?

What is it about what happens below the heart that often causes it to be excluded? Let’s look at some possible reasons for the rejection.

Imagine lust to be the wellspring of sexual chi that is transmuted at a more refined level into love that then become becomes light. If this sounds improbable it might be because a genital to head connection isn’t often assumed due to overlooking a spinal cord bridge.

If an ascetic spirituality espouses a love and light marriage between soul and spirit only, a threesome marriage would seem problematic. It is also reasonable to suppose that before someone falls in love they are first attracted? If so, isn’t lust then smuggled in for the sake of dramatic tension?

It has been noted that desire to possess occurs when attraction is blocked by an obstacle. Because something remains desired as long as it remains out of reach. Once gotten desire evaporates because the gap is closed.

If so, is passion in inverse relation to intimacy? Seems possible if distance overcome is closeness attained. Drawing near is what becoming intimate tends to mean, no?

Would this make distance to passion as closeness is to intimacy? If distance is needed for passion to create the desire to overcome the distance, then the answer would suggest a “Yes!” If so, love cut off from its root lust could cause the loss of passion since love is no longer encumbered by the distance created by passion.

Could this mean that passion is intimacy’s enemy? If intimacy arises when passion in a relationship wanes might it not then lead to loss of interest in what is loved? In a worse case scenario resulting in a dead relationship?

If so, it seems reasonable to assume that as lust dissipates intimacy will lose the very attraction needed needed to keep a relationship alive. While a possible solution might be to allow for lust and love to coexist in a relation, this isn’t too likely after obstacles to having what is loved have been overcome.

Spirit now take center stage to possibly come to rescue. What is needed isn’t so much a divorce in quest of new relationship passion but allowing intimacy itself to die. Suggesting the unlikely dissolution of the problem to be, “The only good marriage is a dead one.”

Could love without attachment be light? Love based on closeness notably being a form of attachment?

If so, a love to light shift could be like entering a new realm free from both genital based desire and love based intimacy but still needing both to exist. As light cut off from love and lust would be like a flame without illumination and heat.

It might be further supposed that detached love is unconditional. Suggesting light to be a form of love when spirit can shine unencumbered.

If so, perhaps the 3Ls can now be imaged as a lust-love-light triangle inverted with love-light top pointing down to a lust bottom. As such the trinitarian foundation proposed makes the way down the way up.

Seeing ears hearing eyes

We’ll use Freud’s notion that sexual orientation develops from an initial newborn polymorphic undifferentiated sensory experience to a mature adult genital organization. Then combine Freud’s theory with meridian system theory to float a trial balloon to see if a further psychosexual possibility can come into play.

Freud hatched the notion that a polymorphous perverse infant could experience erotic pleasure from any point throughout the entire body that in later maturity would become isolated to specific body locations like the genital region. This suggests that while we were polymorphic all our senses were pleasurably potential because raw meridian energy or base sexual chi was diffused throughout the entire body.

The ability to organize energy in one location gives the meridian system the ability to concentrate chi in one specific area of the body. It does this by pulling raw energy from the rest of the body’s meridians. This maturing energetic wizardry occasions a meridian system upheaval that successfully compartmentalizes full body awareness into the five senses.

Revolutionary because the meridian system is now able to capture in concentrated form the erotically charged chi of the complete body. Captured chi creates meridian system segmentation needed for sensory compartmentalization that accompanies the sense of loss of full body sensory awareness.

Freudian “Genital organization” is a useful term to describe the political and economic meridian system structure of a mature adult. It means that the body has one dominate pleasure center that can accrue raw sexual chi from bottom-up subservient centers. This is done for the sake of the heightened pleasure arising from concentrating erotically charged chi in one area.

The energy shift from undifferentiated fusion to compartmentalized fragmentation creates a psychosexual illusion of experiencing five separate sense centers instead of whole body awareness. An illusion because the potential for polymorphic pleasure still exists but now acts as the tacit background for a preferred explicit foreground localized pleasure center.

As maturity increases it becomes possible to duplicate the division into a hierarchy of one dominating top center and many subservient bottom centers in almost every area of life. Theatrical structure is found everywhere be it in political, economic, education, legal, sports or military arenas.

Theater can be used both in literal as well as figurative way for genital organization. Genital organization like theatrical structure has a top class representing full sensory experience as the creative content source centrally placed over and above a lower class audience restricted to sight and sound.

From this vantage point theater can be imagined as an outward symbol for the type of political and economic structure of enjoyed by a given meridian system. The stage is raised above where the lights-camera-action takes place. Conceiving the stage activity as a metaphor for the genital’s ability to magically conjure up the energy of the entire body means the representative audience’s energy can be extracted for its full pleasure potential symbolized by attention and money.

This trick is accomplished by immobilizing the audience seated in darkness restricted to sight and sound so that audience energy in a concentrated form symbolized by attention and money can flow towards center stage. The reason for the dimmed lights is because it helps reduce and restrict the audience’s otherwise five senses to sight and sound only. The audience energy focused on one center is not unlike bodily raw chi becoming concentrated in specific regions for maximum pleasure.

In other words, theater is the status quo metaphor for bodily genital organization. While audience reduction to sight and sound is inferior to the on stage performance full sensory experience, the audience sense of having all five senses is only temporarily lost during the performance.

Digital theater has made non-digital theater hand-held. The truncation of five senses to two for some can become the preferred ordinary reality escape because the focused concentration increases pleasure. This is not without a trade-off.

Touch, taste and smell can become dulled as a side-effect of genital organization’s ability to conjure focused energy from body’s entire meridian system leaving only sight and sound. Because genital organized results in the experienced fragmentation of sensory experience it is like curtained distance between stage and audience.

Walled-off senses compartmentalize for the sake of ranked hierarchy. Compartmentalization is divisive. With compartmentalization comes the potential for conflict.

Conflict leads to the desire to compete, namely work, to win a perceived pleasure reward. Working for the sake of a attaining a reward is on par with genitally organizing a meridian system to capture base sexual chi now played out in the public arena.

Competition makes possible a division of an otherwise undivided class into winners losers. One winner tops vanquishes bottom losers in the same way chi becomes concentrated in one area of the body for the sake of heightened pleasure. This is the representative essence of bodily genital organization forming the basis for status quo cultural reality.

What is up for contention is whether genitally organization is overrated. Is a genitally organized meridian system the best way to extract to experience pleasure. Could a possibility exist for a better way that isn’t based on a one top over many bottoms configuration?

There’s probably no going back to an unconscious infant polymorphic sexuality because attaining a genital organized meridian system means having consciously awakening from being one holistic undifferentiated meridian system. Because talented tops aren’t about to give-up their hard won pleasure rewards, we’ll need to look to the audience for a possible new development.

Normally the eye sees and hear hears. The proposal is to punch a hole in the wall between sight and sound, eye and ear, to open a new sensory way to experience reality.

In energy system language the ear chi and eye chi could unite in a single meridian channel that allows for a bidirectional flow of one chi passing unencumbered through each other without fusion or confusion. In this arrangement the ear and eye chi would move in opposite directions in one meridian circuit overcoming the disconnected sensory distance between what is seen and heard.

For instance, when someone’s body is seen the unique sound of their voice is consciously associated with the way they look. Because of compartmentalization it may not always be possible to consciously perceive that what is seen is the way the it sounds. When sight and sound as irrevocably intertwined it could start a new way to experience reality.

Transformed genital organization means something looks like the way it sounds. The reverse is likewise true.

When a decompartmentalized sensory experience has actualized, is it really better?

If the world is experienced with a renewed sense of newborn richness, fullness and clarity, the answer maybe should be, “Yes!” When entering a competition if there’s a new found competitive edge, perhaps a “thumbs-up” is in order?